But well, who's know? I was thinking of becoming a Audiologist or Speech Therapist (which quite tally with my interest in linguistic) when i was filling the UPU form. By the way, now it's kind of too late for me to throw back and to regret. I can't go back, except for me to quit Medical course, which once in a while i was compelled to do so! Quitting medical course is always advocated by my senior Dr. Tan Kean Hwa and i have always agree on him. But for me medical course is likened a pluoripotent stem cell that might still spare me the chance of doing what i dreamed for when i was teenager. For sure i won't be that kind of typical "serious doctor" in future.
I never like "Biology" perhaps it is another form of biology shaped by educational system that wouldn't let student to think through the reason behind every phenomenon , encouraging rote learning, and certainly it is a subject that hard to score well because of the weird requirement and key word that we never understand. Phiew, i finally grow out of it! I was once told by my secondary school biology teacher:"aiyo, boon seng if you keep answering like this ,you won't get A+ for SPM". OK. i got A+ for my SPM biology, and i still keep my answering style and dislike for biology. Thumbs DOWN! a rebellion me huh! but i am very thankful to my teacher because she is the one who helped me to get an A+. Duh! EXAM SCHEME's way of answering! since when we becoming the robotic in biology?
It was not until i entered Matriculation college in Pahang, where i met Madam Tor Siong Hoon, who helped me gone through the diffucult year in Matriculation, where i left home for the first time, and have no target/idea on my future and feeling indeed rejected! I have got 9A+ and be "promised " of a scholarship for my further study. well... i ended up begining my excited journey at Pantai Timur. If I were given scholarship, I think today I am one of the Engineering Student XD. However,lesson taken: Opportunity only given to those who are well-prepared. It is always there, it is us who are not able to seize it. Now, the idea of scholarship sounds not so glamour as it used to be, when we are given helped not proportionate to our effort, we become lazy, we wouldn't want to do more. And i was quite surprise to know that Harvard University is giving their student financial aids but not scholarship.(I am not sure of this fact, but i read it in a book written about Harvard school motto, but for me this is certainly excitable idea) I always love Physics but be sucks on it -.- Oh my poor imagination. But i certainly willing to spend time on Physics. Physics in mandarin is 物理which is the theory of physical material. the other phrases that carry the same pronunciation with 物理 is 悟理means to understand theory, 雾里 which means in the midst of haze, when you cannot understand the theory. 勿理 dont give a Shit! hahaha, so the attitude changes from 物理悟理雾里to勿理！
Talking about Madam Tor, she helped me a lot! in term of study, she encouraged me to think through Biology (well, matriculation is another Schemed Answer Biology, i still remembered how i spent my time to copy and study the answer scheme so that i can score well, i can feel the zombie in me!) The sweet memory spending in library with Campbell, Raven, Solomon biology is unforgetable! I was amazed by how adaption and evolution shaped the biodiversity we are having now today and how human are "modifying" it. How i love to make sense of biology! I like biology yet i never like "Biology". confusing huh!
Madam Tor also teached me the life lesson, the importance of having a life purpose, i am so lost during my stay in Matriculation College. I felt insecure for my future. Madam Tor offer me great helps by bringing me to Church in Kuantan on a regular basis, I was also attending fellowship in her house. This is the first time, i felt that relligion/to have a belief/to have faith on something is essential. I can see how people live purposeful with Christ, the Father. I always intrigued by the dialogue between Jesus and Samaritan Women. "but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life" When will human being be ever at rest? Although eventually, i picked up buddhism for my life after entering University, but yeah,who cares about religious label ? Does it really matter? I welcomed their teaching, as you mustn't forget that every relligious leader was once a great wonderful human in the history.
Fast forward to the days when i was year 1 medical school, where I mingle with the advanced biology form- the human physiology. After years of Pathologic-Accumulation of misconception,it is hard for students to have correct concepts in physiology.While, correct physiology concept is important to propel our understanding in pharmacology, clinical medicine and making sense of the real life situation, it is very crucial for every learner of physiology to have their learning cycle p53 to ensure non-neoplastic changes on our further physiology learning!The formation of physiologic concept of most student including me was quite early in our education. I remember to first encounter with tremendous amount of physiology information when i was form 4 and 5 where i started my biology lesson. However, my first understand and true grasp the meaning of "tonicity" ,"osmolarity","osmoregulation" comes in light along the way I prepared for IMSPQ. Well... After long year of "education", sometimes I started to convince myself to grow out of the need to be correct, to fulfilled the need of examination and seek for the Truth. Seek and you shall find! Yeah, indeed, I found a book on Harvard school motto "Amicus Plato, Amicus Aristotle,Sed Magis Amicus VERITAS"
Going through the history of physiology, we can easily see that sometimes authority not necessarily correct, or else we won't grow out of the era of humorism and we might still practicing letting blood until today! although it is not fully extinct, phelbotomy still be practiced for polycythemia and hemochromatosis, but the physiology derangement of lossing isotonic blood in otherwise normal person would offense to the vow of doctor undertaken to do no harm! Prima Non Nocere!
Going back to the discussion on my pathologic-accumulation of misconception on physiologic mechanism. It is not until I read books entitiled "Thinking through physiology", "A thinking approach to physiology" and "common misconception in physiology", that i be enlightened of the significant of incorporating thinking to my study. We have been fed by “fast food" style knowledge, which as any fast food it is unhealthy! We have all sorts of software and gadget that made knowledge available at your"finger tips", then we ended up getting lazy to verify the facts on our hand, we didn't bother to mechanically digest the information because it is well-processed, we are happy to be the end user, never realise that science is a dynamic subject.
Few weeks ago, i felt so lost! Then i browse through YouTube search bar by typing "Scientific Method". You might laugh, scientific method is the old thing we learn during primary and lower secondary school, we are now too old for that, we should go for something more high end. However, i was amazed by ignorant i am being a science student and neglecting the scientific method from forming hypothesis to obtaining conclusion to verify the hypothesis, for such a long time with the hope to reach others expectation in examination. From now on, I should always keep reminding myself to think think and think over over and over again. Amicus Veritas, although i am no Harvard University student, but why don't build my own small Harvard Institution inside my pumping heart. XD Again, it sounds to huge a dream, but who cares, dream is meant for gone wild!
Book user from amazon reviewed that this book is a Cambridge-way on learning physiology,But I would say, this book shows me the way to learn physiology that i always longed for! ”A thinking Approach to Physiology"
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